oh my god i just witnessed a dramatic breakup between two 13 year olds
poor little fuck
too many people on earth lets get it down to like 700
at parties im often found flirting with the chip bowl
if we used to talk and don’t really anymore
chances are i miss the hell out of you
but i’ve assumed that you dislike me and that’s why we stopped talking
So here it goes,
Tonight i may have been given the kind of closure I’ve needed for the past 6 months. I have never loved anyone at the level that I loved you and I know I will never ever attain such height ever again for as long as I live. You were seriously my soulmate and my best friend, you were family for Christ sakes. Even though you were never my boyfriend (which may I add, angered me immensely) I still loved you like you were more. However I hate you. Or maybe just hate the things you’ve done to me. Irregardless you make me physically sick to my stomach for your actions and I can’t imagine doing what you did to anyone but I guess you were caught between a rock and a hard place and didn’t know how to get out. You still don’t know how to get out. You know exactly who you are too.
I will never ever forget the bullshit I’ve went through and I thought that I’d never obtain the courage to forgive you but you know what, it’s heading in that direction. I take pity on you, because you’re pathetic and a coward. But my pity won’t help anything so indirectly it’s insignificant. Forgiveness will allow me to move on happily with my life, without such bitterness in my heart. But it’s hard, you know first hand how hard it is to forgive.
Being constantly mentally fucked up due to your actions leave me with the will to succeed above and beyond what you will ever accomplish and i promise you that I will be 10 times the man you ever were, even if I am a woman (that doesn’t matter, I’m fucking great). And for you, I feel bad for you. You still don’t understand the importance of priorities, it’s sad that you cant let yourself realize that everything has a way of falling in place, and this was meant to happen. This was how it was supposed to be I guess.